I wrote a story about us in a post just now. I've deleted everything. I suddenly remember; why do I have to think about you again? In a happy way? Seriously, letting go a person you would live in your entire life is different; imagine that's my crush and we have been so close for years BUT we never got together (yep, n-o-t-a-t-a-l-l). It can be a regret feeling or just a hurtful thing. It will never be a crying to die's kind of feeling. If I had talent like Taylor Swift's, I would be a good songwriter in a year coming out a full album composed by myself. I don't know if it would work for you guys but sometimes writing a blog doesn't mean to find a fame or popularity out of it; it just simply meant that would like to share something to people out there who's dealing the same thing like me. I'm not a full time blogger but I just like to type and compose a post. Sometimes telling people how we feel is really an annoying thing, we just don't feel that they would listen or giving any advice at all, they would just do it for the sake of listening and changing the topic before you could even finish it. So sometimes people would just rather be quite than to speak out what's in the mind. For doing so, they might also end up being depressed for nothing (yes, I do have some little signal of depression; but hey, I found a way to minimise by blogging tho). So sometimes, it's good to actually typing it out & share it to the whole world, so that they could contact you and you both can even talk about it. Yes, I found two girls buddy and three guys buddy online from different country (yes, kind of proud :P) & we started a small chat, right now we are close buddies! So, do not be afraid to make some friends with other side of the world as well because we could look up for different opinions for our view & sort of things. :)