Once, you told me not to change to someone that would become a stranger to you & you promised you won't either. I trust, trust you all the time that you would not and probably I did not want to face the fact that you did. People kept reminding me about it; I did not want to listen either. I chose to stay by your side even though it doesn't make me happy. I tried all my best to stay; your attention that is what matters to me. You would give all your attention to me; now, it's all gone. You did not want me to leave you and yes, I kept my promise. I got standby ready and when you need me, you would know where to find me. It feels like I'm the one who needs you the most; all the time and you knew it. You just do not want to face the fact that yes, I do have feelings for you. You acted stupid & innocent. I did act like you do not know at all. In fact, deep down inside, we all know that I do have feelings for you. Sometimes I feel that you do care about me but you just show it another way or some way that I don't feel that you do care. You don't want me to mis-take it. I knew all the time that we won't able to be together. You just need my companion. You just need someone who is close to you and remains the same way it has to be. I too agree; we should just keep it this way. People used to said it's not easy and guy & girl couldn't be best friend for too long. I guess I do agree on that. You know all along, you're not my type of guy & vice versa; sometimes, feelings can't be control. You understand me too well and I do understand you too well. We are super comfortable with each other. We got close with each other's family. Each time you called, I got real excited. We talked long, anything; just anything happen, even if it's just a small thing. We laughed our ass off & we end our phone call till one of us tired or sleepy. It's just too special to have you in my life. I couldn't be close with other girls. I just simply couldn't be that close to just a girl best friend. Others would have think I'm weird or being a drama but I guess you're the only one who proves to them I'm not. You protected me from them being talking about me. I still remember you would want to talk to me whole night, because you were afraid of dark *when you told me you still on the lights in your room* ; probably because I scared your ass off with my horror stories. It was real funny. You asked me to sing you some songs so that you could sleep. Yes, I did and you were snoring! Gosh, how time flies huh? Every guy used to dump their best friend once they got gf, but you were different. You were still close to me. I'm glad. Real glad you did not just leave my side. Each time you were in trouble, you will tell me everything, just every single thing. I miss all these moments; that I know it will never happen again.