I don't want to repeat any mistakes anymore. 4 years of having someone wrong by my side. I am not saying that I chose someone wrong as my friend. It's just when it doesn't belongs to you, then let it go. The process of letting go is hard even though you do not want the conclusion to end up being stranger to the closest friend of yours. It's hard & you try so hard to mend it back but it doesn't work. I just want to tell you that, it's ok. No one can let go just like this. You can be sad over it for months, but I promise you, you'll be fine. I thought I will never stand up again but hey look, I did. I could even smile and be happier than before. Sometimes, when you're holding onto someone that doesn't belong in your life makes you suffer. Everything you do, you do it for them. You're just pleasing them and not because you're making yourself happier. You just try to make them happy but what's the point if you're not happy doing it? Keeping them by your side makes your world darker when you do not love yourself as much as you love them. In the beginning, it's hard, I can tell you I even think of leaving this world because it's that hard to move on. You're like living in a dead city like nothing else matters to you except for them, the one you had to live without from now on. Hell wrong! You have your family, and OTHER CLOSER FRIENDS! You forgot about them. You pushed all of them away when you're only with the one you should live without. Sit back, calm yourself, pick up your damn phone and start apologising for your idiotic behaviour! Mix with them again, get their supports and you know you had their back. Friends do not blame you for your stupidity, they blame you for not involving them in your life. In fact, when I first contacted them about it, they eventually scolded me for not telling them instead of being stupid to leave them for the one I SHOULD LEAVE WITHOUT. So just try calling them, then you will know who is your true friends! Never ever get back to the idiots that hurt you for the second time. No point forgiving them and being hurt by them again and again. The most important thing you should know is that, if they chose to trust over other bitches or bastards instead of you, then you should know where you stand in their life. I never really regret for helping my "ex-bestfriend" FOR ALMOST EVERYTHING in his life because I did a pretty good job in helping. One day, I know he will regret but he has no face to face me. So many things I done for him but at the end, knowing him lie to me so many things (and he accused me for lying to him) makes me wonder if he ever did treat me as best friend? Well, no point thinking about it anymore, right? So people out there, it's ok to be stupid once, it's not ok to fall for the second time. Remember to be thankful for such person appear in your life and makes you realise this world is full of nonsense people and heart breakers. Love yourself more than anyone else. Once you get through this, you will know that you are stronger than before. You're able to protect yourself when you move on. Never cry for anyone anymore. Be happier than before. Tell your "ex-bestfriends", you're happier without them in your life.