so my facebook was deactivated. things were pretty messed up for me lately. i got to admit that i have to give up on the things i hold tightly. even though i hold it tight, i still feel things got loosen up, where it doesn't belong to me anymore. i tried to tell myself so many millions time that i should have let go to things that doesn't belongs to myself anymore. sometimes, i just feel like crying but there is no reason for me to, it just happen to remind me that he's the only one i would release every tears that i'm holding back, he's the one who could cheer me up, he's the one that i would want to hold on to. even right now, i can't even express it anymore here. i just dont know how to, anymore.