it's true when people said that when you get elder, your friends will get lesser. well, only the true ones stay there for you. sometimes missing the old times are really one sad thing to do when you are alone in room, thinking how you wish you could turn back the time. the other day, i was just thinking of texting one of my friend, asking how is her/him these few days, because i suddenly thought of catching up. just because she/he was in bad mood, or should i say she/he was frustrated by things that disturb her/him, i was being throw like this. i was pretty mad, no, was real mad. knowing that she/he was the only friend i could talk to that time and i am being treated this way really pissed me off and what makes me more sad, it's that i know no one NO ONE i can find any more to talk to, to share my things with. people always think i have a lot of friends, enjoying my life with my friends, but they were all wrong, and i was wrong too. i always think that i have someone who will back me up, who will support me other than my family, but i was wrong, REAL WRONG! now, times really prove me wrong. once, I WAS JUST A FRIEND, just a friend. what have i done wrong? maybe i wasnt that good as i think i am. 

then, i texted you because i really need someone to talk to. you never even reply and you saw me the other day lied into my face saying, "oh, i am sorry, i did not receive anything from you. are you okay?". NO, I AM NOT OK!